Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Blah.


I'm in a weird head-space today. I feel anxious and sad and like today wasn't my shining moment as a parent.


I hate when the last thing the kids hear when they're going to bed is me yelling at them. Went back up to apologize, and Simon and Scarlett were already asleep, so I laid down in bed with Gavin and told him I was sorry for yelling, with his little arms wrapped around my neck.


I know as a parent some days are good, and some are bad, and it seems like it has been a while since I've had a bad day, so I guess I was due, but still, I feel like a shit.


On the Biggest Loser tonight, Dolvett was talking to a contestant about how she approached everything from a place of worry and fear. That is so much how I am, and it gets tiresome. If there is anything, no matter how trivial, to worry about, I will. It's one of my least favorite traits about myself, and if I could figure out how to change it, I would in a heartbeat. I have made myself sick with worry so many times, and it seems like the older I get, the worse it gets.



Blah. And now I've just barfed all over this post. Well, I guess they can't all be sunshine and rainbows, can they? Here's to a better day tomorrow.

Linking up here.

Shirt: JC Penny
Pants: Zara
Shoes: Naughty Monkey
Necklace: Gift

BlahBlah,
Shan

7 comments:

HJolley said...

I, too, am a horrible worrier, and it sucks all of my energy sometimes. And drives my husband nuts too. So I totally get it. You look great in this outfit, especially the pants!

Karrin said...

I appreciate you being "real". Do you think its a "woman" thing to be a worrier? I know I am and I don't particularly care for it. Some days are better than others, which means some are worse. This was one of those for you. Tomorrow is a new day. (I feel like that's a movie line or something. You get my meaning.)

Suzanne Carillo Style Files said...

Every new day brings a new opportunity to do better.

We all have ups and downs. The best thing is to forgive ourselves, learn from it and move on.

bisous
Suzanne

Moira said...

I had one of those days yesterday too. The worrying is so draining, isn't it? Hope today is better!

dreamingincashmere said...

I hate that too when you yell at them before bedtime...I'm guilty and I do exactly what you did and go snuggle in their beds with them:):) Makes my heart feel better!
xoAmy
www.dreamingincashmere.com

whitley hamlin said...

Girl,
Get it all out! That is what we are here for. You are an amazing mama and an awesome friend and smokin' hot grease lightening... You are not alone my dear. Love you more than my luggage!
Thanks for keeping it real :).
Whitley
www.thequeencitystyle.com

Carrie Teal said...

I have had those moments myself, my kids never want to stay on bed drives me crazy. I mean we get like 5 minutes a night- Jk - not really. Girl love the outfit , the jeans and the stripe shirt are awesome.

Xoxo,
Carrie