This weekend was cold, grey, damp, and depressing. Last Friday, my uncle passed away from cancer. I was never close to him, but he was my dad's last living brother (of a family of eight brothers and sisters), and the third of his siblings to die in the last year.
In the past several years, dad has lost some of the people closest to him, two of my uncles (his brother-in-laws), and now three siblings. Since one of my uncles died, I would say dad has been pretty depressed, and combined with the fact that he is retired, not in great health himself, and sits around drinking much of the day, it's not difficult to see why he and I have butted heads a lot in recent years (well, all of the above combined with the fact that we're both equally stubborn).
My dad is also from a generation who, unfortunately, doesn't want to TALK about their depression or drinking or anything else, and to consider taking medication for it, well, that's another story altogether (though until he gets his drinking under control, I wouldn't think he should take anything).
I don't know. I feel like once a month I talk about how depressed I am, and I hope I'm not "wearing out my welcome," so to speak, on the topic. My own depression is more wrapped up in being a parent, and feeling unsuccessful at it, and it's just part of who I am at this point in my life. Seeing my dad living with it has me grappling with how best to deal with it for myself.
The song below doesn't really have anything to do with depression or alcoholism, but it crossed my mind this weekend and I love it. I had never seen this particular video before, but it is strange and amazing.