Monday, August 23, 2010

Disgusted

I was halfway through taking pics for WWD today, and realized I feel disgusting and have no desire to share it with the blogosphere. I'm just disgusted with myself and know the number on the scale shouldn't have as much power over me as it does, but it is what it is. I'm disgusted because I KNOW what I need to do to get to the number I want to be at, but apparently don't have the willpower to eat how I should be eating. On most days I feel pretty good about myself especially having had triplets, because my body could be very different if I had chosen to go down that road. The thing is, I DIDN'T choose to go down that road - totally - but I also can't commit to a healthier lifestyle, apparently. I wish I could look in the mirror and be completely happy with myself, but the sad fact is that right now I cannot.

BlahBlah,
Shannan

2 comments:

Peetzi Jen said...

No no no! YOU have had 3 children! All a once!!!! AND you managed to look fantastical afterward. A bad day will happen. And so will a cupcake. And a glass (box) of wine...or ten. Tomorrow will be better. But I say enjoy your cupcake!

Jill said...

Totally understand!